how i wish..

how i wish him to know that i miss him so much..
how i wish him to know that i miss it when i can say "aku sayang kamu" anytime i like..
how i wish him to know that i miss all the stupid jokes and silly things we did together..
how i wish him to know that i miss it when he sing songs with his guitar for me before i sleep..
how i wish him to know that i miss stay up until morning so that i can say good night to him..
how i wish him to know that i miss his calls in the middle of the night or early morning that disturb my sleeps..
how i wish him to know that i miss looking deep into his eyes..
how i wish him to know that i really wanna go back to all the memories that we had..
how i wish him to know that i'd give the world to him..
how i wish him to know that i care about him so much..
how i wish him to know that i've been dreaming bout him so many nights..
how i wish him to know that i'm crying while writing this..

but.. when i am the one who became the victims of all this feeling.. what should i do? would he do the same? would he give the world to me? would he change for me..?or should i just live in this wishful world?