i just...hate it..

i hate it when i think i'm against everybody..
i hate it when i have to use my rational rather than follow my heart..
i hate it when the situation is out of my control..
i hate it when i cant speak my hearts out..
i hate it when i think nobody can understand me..
i hate it when i'm confused and seems like there's no way out..
i hate it when i must make a right-important-unchangeable decision..
i hate it when i should hurt myself..
i hate it when i have to pretend like everything is fine..
i hate it when all i can do is jealous and knowing that i cant do anything to fix my situation..
i hate it when i imagine that i have to let my dreams fade away..
i just.. hate it..when everything seems not right..