Guilty..

if only he know my blog and read it.. now is the time i realize that i hurt him so much.. it takes a year for me to realize all the things he did and why he did it.. one year back, i was mad at him, angry at him for all the things he did.. he is the innocent of all for what happen, and i blame him for that.. now after a year i realize what he did is because he loved me.. and i just break him into pieces after keeping his love for me for 6 years.. he keep explaining the reason he dissappeared, but i ignored it.. i disappeared.. i responsed it heartlessly.. and he has to step back yet still be so nice to me.. it's been a year and we still contact each other, but never come across it again.. he never blame me or asking why.. but i cant turn back time.. i'm with someone new.. i cant break my bf's heart.. i cant hurt him.. and i dont want to break anybody's heart anymore.. but i still feel guilty.. if only he read my blog..i'm so sorry for what i did..